A few weeks ago I ventured to Denton Thrift to find some key items I felt my wardrobe was lacking: a football jersey, an argyle sweater, a couple cardigans in various colors, a robe (that I have yet to wear and may never because it's not at all what I expected), and two nightgowns. The entire time I was shopping I kept finding different items that would remind me of Denise or Caitlin and I so wanted to purchase those items for them, but I decided to wait because I'd only end up wearing what I purchased for them if I bought it now. I think I went to the store initially because I wanted more sweaters like the ones Denise gave to Caitlin and me before they left. I wear that sweater that you gave me, Denise, all the time and constantly receive compliments for it, Bonnie even told me last time she saw me wearing it how "fashionable" I looked... I couldn't help but laugh because the sweater is totally 80's and vintage.... but I love it so much, seriously - thank you! My hunt was very successful, I cannot wait to show you (DB & Cait.) what I purchased, you'll be lovingly jealous and happy for me at the same time. No worries, you can borrow it all.
My heart has been really unsettled with my current job dispositions. I can't help but feel as though the quality of what I put into my job is completely underestimated by the quantity received from the work I put in. It's not fair in my eyes and I'm being burnt out by it. I don't want to be another turnover that sends my work place into a frenzy to find my replacement, but I don't think it's a good environment for me to be in anymore, no fruition is coming to the surface from my presence there - that is probably one of the most frustrating things, also the sabotage I've felt lately, or maybe sabotage is the wrong word, but very unnecessary drama being created to be placed on my shoulders - not cool. Prayer would by nice in this field, prayer over direction on where to go next? I don't even know where to begin looking, but I know I need to start now if I'm to accomplish my goal of putting my two weeks notice in two weeks before spring break.
Ben & I have been enjoying some of the most wonderful afternoons Denton has ever seen! The other day we hung out at my apartment and watched a few episodes of The Office, after I got my much needed Dwight-fix we went to Starbucks off the loop and drank iced drinks out on the patio for hours.
Three things made that moment the best one yet: ONE, the weather was perfect! Like 70something degrees (in Feb., I love Texas)... my favorite kind of weather. TWO, we had the patio all to ourselves... where everyone else was, I don't know, nor do I care - it was our patio for the few hours we were there. And THREE, Ben ordered, and drank, an iced Caramel Macchiato.... a coffee drink! He hates coffee!!!! I LOOOOOooOOoOOOoOve coffee... talk about a turn-on. Weird, I know. It happened. I was joyful. All we did for those few hours was talk and talk and smooch and talk and talk about life. Every aspect of life; I can talk to that person about anything and everything for days and still have things to say.
Our friendship is so unique to me, and it has become so incredibly apparent just how much of a blessed gift he is in my life, seriously - God is spoiling me and he doesn't even care. Awesome. Also, Ben swears as we were leaving the Starbucks' crew appeared on the porch and gave us a round of applause. Now, I did not see this, but he has yet to change his story, so I'm going to assume this is true and let it add to the brilliancy of our day together. Love that man, truth.
I'm trying to go to Spain with Aaron over spring break to see my very missed lady friends. I hope it all works out, it looks like it will - but you never know. I've learned over the years not to get my hopes up, it's too dangerous to the heart... better to have your heart be surprised by things going the way you had hoped than to have it be let down (that's not something I always say, but it sounds like the type of phrase you would follow with "... that's what I always say." so for that purpose alone....)... that's what I always say.
Alright, bed time. I'm to up in 5 1/2 hours to take a little girl to school, then school myself. Love it.
Also, my dog is fighting off an evil villain at the end of my bed... in her dreams... right now. Love that too.
and love you, whoever you are.
Oh, Michelle - I'll write you an e-mail soon, I've been slacking on my internet visits lately, so this post was a little bit for you... but I'll also e-mail you in full soon.
beautiful. wouldn't you say?
beautiful. wouldn't you say?
a little black & white view-point.
i love this picture, i think it's because of the numerous tree branches that are rather minute and overly plentiful in this shot.
the kiss.