So, it's been a while since I've last been on here. I guess I haven't had much to say, except I have had a lot to say and I've just lacked the desire and motivation to post it...
I freakin went to Spain! It's been about a month now, actually exactly one month now.... man does time fly. Oh, how I loved Spain! I loved every second of that trip, even the testing part at the end when, as Aaron put it, my "emotional egg was beginning to crack." We were stuck in the Atlanta airport for a day and a night with the possibility of having to stay another night before any flights would open up for us. I was exhausted, stanky, and cranky..... yea, I was borderline losing it. But God was totally there!
He had his hand over the entire trip, the planning, the actuality of it, the return, everything! I have never had to be more dependent on Him than in this past moment of my life: he provided the money to get there, he provided our seats on the plane - literally! (I never want to fly any other way than stand-by ever again, p.s.) He was there opening my eyes, ears, senses to the world around me, placed my thoughts where He wanted them to be in whatever moment I was in. He was the director of my photography.
He brought us home, even in my moments of doubt, he was there, in control, fingers on the strings that held my strategically timed life together. He placed us on first class for the 9 hour flight back..... oh what a life! I sure was spoiled, thank you Jesus!!! God took his children on a trip, as Aaron so poetically asked him to before our first take off. It was so perfect, I cannot wait for the next one.
I started a new job last week. I'm a sales associate at a new high-end boutique in the Shops at Highland Village, called Apricot Lane Boutique. We carry all sorts of trendy designers, and it's so small and personal that I actually love the retail aspect of it! Last time I left retail, I swore I'd never be back for it was too stressful - dealing with all the chaos of the summer & holiday seasons, and the needy/greedy moms and teens... but this time it's different. The store is so upscale and expensive, we won't have the ridiculousness of little teens running around, trying everything on and buying nothing, nor will we have the holiday rush and panic. I love doing the visual merchandising and displays, I love training and teaching and sharing my selling-secrets... I'm crossing my fingers that I will receive a promotion to assistant manager in just a few months, and perhaps become the general manager of my own store by the end of the year! That's what was potentially promised to me.... time will tell.
School's about to end and summer will be a sweet relief. These last few semesters have been trying ones for me - not that they've been hard or anything, my mind and heart just haven't been there. It's been a real task for me to focus or create the drive and motivation to attend class and do some studying. For the first time since I can remember, I have allowed myself to seriously slack off and have not reprimanded myself for it. I went into last semester with the hopes of getting my GPA back above a 3.5, but that will not be the case this year. I realized today how indifferent I am to the whole idea of my recent slacker habits, I don't know what my deal is, but I do know the sluggish motivation I have developed has slowly seeped itself into other critical parts of my life: my physical health - I never work out anymore, my spiritual health - cannot seem to commit myself to a daily quiet time, my financial spending, and my cleaning habits. Proverbs rebukes strongly against slothfulness, however I've taken on a "no pasa nada" point of view. Hopefully this summer will provide me with enough rest and fellowship to re energize me for the next year..... and maybe then I'll finally get to graduate!!
