this is it

we received our marriage license today. that was an adventure.

[setting: the most gloomy place imaginable. a couple just left the waiting area to be wed by the justice of the peace... nothing romantic about their occasion, no big spectacle that has their friends and loved ones "ooooing" and "aweing"... no big dollar signs weighing her shoulders down. i envy her and pity her all at once.]

clerk [in the least excitable voice]: how may i help you?
us: we're here to apply for a marriage license!
clerk: okay. please answer these questions truthfully...
are you siblings by blood or adoption?
no
are either of you the child of the other's aunt or uncle, either by blood or adoption?
no
are either of you the blood/adopted child of the other's grandparent related to the other by blood or adoption?
no
are either of you related to the other's neighbor who has been or will be related to the other's grandparent's nephew or niece by blood or adoption, now or ever?
uhhhhh..... no...?

just kidding, i made the last part up. but it did definitely feel like we were being screened for the next springer show, and at times it had me panicking that we might fail our marriage license application. we didn't. all is well.

we have 6 days left. 6 days. it hasn't truly hit me yet that in one week from now i will be married. i don't think i've really processed my emotions just yet, i've been too busy planning the most creatively budget wedding i have ever heard of. when will i begin to feel the relief of all spent efforts? all i keep thinking about is what all still needs to be done (a lot) and how will we make it without financial help.

on the bright side, we only have 6 days left. in 6 days it won't matter what had to be foregone in the wake of all necessities... all that will matter is i will be escorted by my father to my best friend where we will exchange life-binding vows in front of our closest friends and family. that is good news.

in the end, i will make it through this week and will come out on top... or bottom ;)